I feel very warm looking back at us
Calm winds enter in
When I began to think of you again
I was further then a friend to you
Then again I was looking out for you at the same time.
I thought it could be better for you to skip the “good times” in your life - yet so did everyone else. But that’s not how it works ever anyway.
A part of me still loves you and that is the truth but I seem to love you more now, more for who you are as a person.
I feel like I’m watching you grow up from a far and watching you learn for the first time for you-from your own experiences and that’s is special to me.
I wasn’t wrong about what I saw in you our first day together at Lucy’s, you really have a lot of life inside and it shows. You were very bright and fresh, you were in bloom as a person yet, you were a bit trapped, and I really did feel bad about you being a bit trapped and watched. I look back on it now and I should definitely cut loose a bit more with you more than anything, it would have been liberation for you and the same old shit for me-but I would have dealt with partying, but it was a life that I felt I was never the end of life in and got worn out as a creative person - so I didn’t want you fall I got into that. Who cares about I love of, I learned a lot from you in many different ways and we are different people now.
I want to be one of your closest friends again and make you laugh again. I loved making you laugh and not worry anymore about stuff that would tormentedly bother you, I loved you the most when you came out of the dark beaming with a smile and a new realization because I knew you could have that realization forever, and helping you get to that point was my greatest pleasure with you.
I miss you and I will always love you.
"the greatest thing, you’ll ever learn, is just to love, and be loved in return."
- from the song Nature Boy